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Randomness that made me smile [21 Dec 2008|06:11pm]
AIM convo between Zach and I just now:

Zach: you're bf is ugly
Me: you're ugly
Zach: Seriously he's sitting like a foot from me
Me: um, k
Zach: He's hideous
Zach: He needs to shave his chest
Me: well that's just mean
Me: nooooo
Zach: Yea
Me: I won't let him
Zach: Fer real
Me: nope
Zach: Yea
Me: whatev
Zach: Cause you like him ugly
Zach: Bitch
Me: :-(
Zach: Ill cut you
Me: do it
Zach: Oh its on
Me: bring it
Zach: You know what
Me: what?
Zach: Imma bring him to go get his chest WAXED
Me: NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
Zach: What now
Zach: WHAT NOW
Zach: WHAT THE FUCK NOW BITH HUH DO SOMETHIN DO SOMETHIN
Me: yeah, well, um....I'm gonna get Kellie rogaine. the special kind. make her extra furry.
Zach: Hey I hear chris ate a shitload of beans last night
Zach: You
Zach: Are
Zach: Just cruel
Me: lol
Me: you brought it, I just had to respond
Zach: Good game
Me: ditto
Zach: Most fucking amazing aim conversation I have ever had
Me: haha, glad I could be a part of it
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[04 Apr 2008|11:22am]
[ mood | cynical ]
[ music | Dashboard Confessional - Standard Lines ]

Which of the bold faced lies will we use?
'I hope that you're happy, you really deserve it,
this will be the best for us both in the end.'

But your taste still lingers on my lips like I just placed them upon yours
and I starve...
I starve for you.
But this new diet's liquid
and dulling to the senses.
And it's crude, but it will do.

So which of the standard lines will we use?
'I've been meaning to call you. I've just been so busy.
We'll catch up soon.
Let's make it a point to.'

But your taste still lingers on my lips like I just placed them upon yours
and I starve...
I starve for you.
But this new diet's liquid
and dulling to the senses.
And it's crude, but it will do.

but it will do...
I hope it will do...

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I just want to sleep [01 Apr 2008|11:10pm]
[ mood | anxious ]
[ music | Dashboard Confessional - Dusk & Summer ]

Because if I sleep then maybe tomorrow night will get here faster and I'll see him again....

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Hilarities! [25 Mar 2008|01:57am]
[ music | The 5.6.7.8.s - Woo Hoo ]

So, I made a comment to Shalanda while she was chilling in my room and I was like, "Ugh, god, I swear, the only people that IM me on AIM are people that wanna hit this!" The following ensued:


Shalanda (1:53:34 AM): i dont wannt hit that!
Shalanda (1:53:38 AM): :)
Me (1:53:50 AM): yeah you do.
Shalanda (1:53:57 AM): ummm...
Me (1:54:06 AM): I know you do. it's ok.
Shalanda (1:54:40 AM): omg.. you never told me you had a penis!!!
Me (1:54:56 AM): yeah, it's detachable
Shalanda (1:55:32 AM): id totally hit that if you were 6'3... black.. and had testicles!!!
Me (1:55:48 AM): I can make that happen




Amazing. Highlight of my night.

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stolen from mel [07 Mar 2008|03:18am]
[ music | Sealab 2021 ]

Your Ultimate Purity Test 2.0 Score Is...
 Your Score:Average For All UsersAverage For All
( total)
 
Dating11.54%34.12%Gone steady 
Self-Lovin'39.39%60.84%When I think about you - or anyone - I touch myself 
Shamelessness59.68%77.33%It takes a couple of drinks 
Sex Drive52.38%75.01%A fool for love, but not always 
Straightness7.41%39.19%Knows the other body type like a map 
Gayness62.96%78.07%Had that experience at camp 
Dominant93.33%86.65%Afraid to cross at "Don't Walk" signs 
Submissive76.19%87%Submits to no one... almost 
Fucking Sick83.67%89.8%Refreshingly normal 
Total Score59.51%73.69% 
Take The Ultimate Purity Test 2.0
and see how you match up!


(By The Ferrett)

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Proof that Anderson Cooper is my soulmate (and that I'm a huge loser) [22 Feb 2008|03:02am]
[ music | The Queers - I Wanna Be Happy ]

So, while watching the Clinton/Obama debate tonight, Hillary Clinton said something along the lines of 'Obama doesn't offer change you can believe in, but change you can xerox.' So I told Shalanda, "That's actually pretty witty...I wonder who wrote it for her." Then, later, we were watching Anderson Cooper 360 and his coverage of the debate and he restated that line and said, "I wonder who gave her that line."

Needless to say, I freaked out, lol. We are meant to be. He just doesn't know it yet. Even Shalanda admits that we're soulmates. :)

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Word of the Year 2007 [11 Dec 2007|11:06pm]
[ mood | bored ]

w00t!

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So... [19 Nov 2007|11:48pm]
I noticed I haven't posted anything in a while, and that makes me kinda lame. So I've decided to post some of the poems I'm written this semester for class and whatnot.


Yeah, sorry if they're kinda depressing. They really aren't meant to be!
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Man... [19 Aug 2007|11:59pm]
[ mood | depressed ]

Each year it gets harder and harder to say bye to all my friends back home and return to Orlando. I don't know what I'm gonna do next year when everybody is going off to college and I'm going off to god knows what. I might not even be in Florida by next year.

That's kinda weird to think about...

I just wanna go home and stay young forever. :/

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Woohoo! [25 May 2007|02:16am]
[ mood | ecstatic ]

My birthday was AWESOME!! Good friends, good food, good times.... I think this is the first great birthday I've had in a loooong time!

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:( [05 Apr 2007|12:46pm]
[ mood | sad ]

A Weston teen was killed Wednesday in a rollover wreck on the on-ramp to Interstate 595 east.

Jessica L. Paz, 18, was driving a 2003 Infinity G35 south on the Sawgrass Expressway, with three passengers, when she lost control of the SUV on the ramp to I-595, where the vehicle crashed through a guardrail, the Florida Highway Patrol said.

The wreck closed the ramp for more than two hours.

Two passengers -- Jonathan Fernandez, 20, of Weston, and Daniel Goldberg, 17, of Sunrise, were taken to Broward General Medical Center in Fort Lauderdale with serious injuries, said Sgt. Mark Wysocky, FHP spokesman. The third passenger, Jovan Ocasio, 17, of Sunrise, also was taken to Broward General. His injuries were minor, Wysocky said.


I got the news from Natalie this morning. She was hysterical, I could barely figure out what she was saying. Her sister is gone, and I feel so bad. I just want to be there for her. I'm trying to figure out how to get back home and email professors letting them know I'll be missing class. My heart is just breaking for Natalie...

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What to do... [19 Feb 2007|07:22pm]
[ music | Lynyrd Skynyrd - Sweet Home Alabama ]

when your friend is upset:

1. Go to Denny's
2. Go to Wal-Mart
3. Decide to take random pics all over the UCF area

LOL

Yeah, that was my night last night. Didn't get home til like 5 am. Anyways

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Weird experience of my life... [29 Jan 2007|03:51pm]
[ mood | bewildered ]
[ music | Buffalo Springfield - For What It's Worth ]

So, twenty bucks to whoever guesses what just happened to me.

Give up?

I was attacked by a FUCKIN' SQUIRREL!!!

Yeah, crazy, huh? So what happened was, I had gone to the library and I got hungry so I bought a sandwich from the cafe and there was no place to sit, so I decided to go outside and eat. So I'm sitting there and all of a sudden, I feel something on my shoulder and I turn my head and I'm staring into the eyes of a freakin' squirrel!!!!

So I start freaking out, trying to get him off of me, but he just kept running back and forth on my arms and over my shoulders, lmao. And then, this group of people noticed and were like, "Holy crap! That squirrel is attacking that girl!!!"

So then this guy comes running over and scares the thing off of me and starts karate kicking at it, trying to get it to run away. And everyone around him is like, "Kill the squirrel!!!" lol

No lie, this is one of the freakiest things to ever happen to me. And the whole time I could not stop laughing at the sheer amazement of the situation. I mean, what the hell are you supposed to do if you get attacked by a squirrel?!?!?! And these things are vicious man. No joke.

And I didn't notice til the fiasco was over, but the bugger scratched the shit out of my hand. I hope he doesn't have rabies. Maybe I should go to the health center, lol. So yeah, moral of the story, everyone beware of the UCF squirrels!!!

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It's been forever... [27 Jan 2007|01:41pm]
[ mood | confused ]
[ music | Taking Back Sunday - You're So Last Summer ]

So, I had a dream last night. About Jeff. I don't know why, but he was there. And for some strange reason, it made me really sad. Because after, I don't know, a year, I'm realizing how much I miss him. And I know he's totally wrong for me, not to mention he's engaged now, but I just remember how I felt when I was with him and I miss that. Maybe I'm feeling a little sad because we don't even talk any more, and he was a big part of my life for a long time. All I know is that dream made me miss him a lot. I wish I could talk to him, but I have a feeling if I even sent him a message, his crazy fiance would hunt me down. Ugh, when did life get so complicated? Well, I guess it's for the best that I can't talk to him. If I talk to him, I'd probably want to get back with him, and that's impossible. I need to just accept the fact that he's moved on. It's weird, because I thought I had moved on too. What gives? I guess that's the strange thing about memories. We only remember the good parts of people. We idealize them so much in our thoughts and block out all the negative qualities they had. I mean, I know Jeff was a jerk to me at times, but I can't for the life of me remember a single instance. All I can remember is how sweet he was and how cute he was. Ugh, but seriously. Damn my dreams. I need to get over this, and fast. I need to go do something to take my mind off my own thoughts so I can just forget this whole thing and be happy again.

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Weeeee [05 Nov 2006|11:45pm]
[ mood | chipper ]
[ music | Food Network ]

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Long time, no update... [04 Nov 2006|03:32am]
[ mood | cynical ]
[ music | Hinder - Lips of an Angel ]

So, yeah. My life has been insane. This has been, by far, the hardest semester I've encountered since I've been up here. I literally spend more time on campus at the library than I do in my own apartment. I hate my poetry teacher because she's retarded and making my life extremely difficult. On the bright side, though, I love my German class and my German teacher. Best class ever. My fiction workshop isn't bad, except for the horribly written stories that I constantly have to critique and edit. Someone please explain to me why English majors don't know the basic principles of grammar. But yeah, my lit mags class is pretty fun, too, but also extremely demanding. *Sigh* And here I am, at 2:22 in the morning, not asleep even though I'm exhausted. Bah.

Anywho, so, I've pretty much been celebate for the last, oh, I dunno, year? LOL. Sad, but whatever. I think I've pretty much decided that I will be alone for the rest of my life because I can't get over my social awkwardness and low self-esteem. I totally like this one guy, but, of course, I'm not going to say anything. That's how I am. Completely and utterly pathetic. The saddest part is that I fully realize that I can change my situation, yet, I don't because, well, I guess it's just easier to be the one in control of my lonliness. I mean, the way I see it is I have two options: 1. Don't say anything, take the risk that I might be throwing away a chance with an awesome person and be miserable, or 2. Put myself out there and if that situation goes awry, then deal with the rejection and be miserable. Either way, not a good ending for me. At least in the first option, I am the one that is CHOOSING to be miserable, if that makes any sense at all. It works in my twisted brain...

ANYWAYS...moving on. Yeah, my life. It's crazy. Work is hectic, but I finally got a raise! Woohoo! 10 bucks an hour. I'm glad that I haven't had to ask my dad for any money for like the last, I dunno, at least 6 months. But yeah...I was thinking earlier about what I'm gonna do after UCF and I came to the realization that I have no idea what I want to do with my life. I have no goals...hell, I don't even have plans for anything beyond this month. All I know is that I miss my friends and I miss my family and I just want to be able to be near them. But I have a horrible feeling that I won't be able to once I finish school......

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*Cry* [12 Sep 2006|02:55am]
[ mood | depressed ]
[ music | my own tears ]

Ok, so does anyone remember that show Popular that was on from like 99-00? Well, if not, it was a fantastic show and utterly hilarious and I highly recommend it. But that's besides the point. Like 6 months ago, Shalanda and I discovered the first disc of the first season at our local library. So, since we both remembered loving the show, we picked it up and watched it. That began our obsession. We proceeded to get every single disc of the first season, and then I ordered the entire second season on Netflix. It is amazing. But alas, the show was prematurely cancelled. And Shalanda and I have just finished watching the very last episode which, of course, ends with a cliffhanger. Now I am horribly depressed because I can no longer live vicariously through these characters and watch them blossom and experience the formation and destruction of their subsequent relationships. Oh woe is me. Someone needs to petition them to bring this show back! Well, I am off to crawl into a corner and cry for a week at my horribly unfortunate loss. By the way, I fully realize how HUGE of a dork I am right now. :)

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[29 Aug 2006|01:43am]
[ mood | creative ]
[ music | Dion and the Belmonts - Teenager In Love ]

So, in the middle of writing a story tonight, I was struck with the urge to write a poem. Then another. So...I did. Here are the fruits of my labor:


Feedback is greatly appreciated, even if it's just to tell me I suck. :p
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[20 Jul 2006|11:56am]
[ mood | depressed ]

So, at 5 o'clock this morning, after getting about an hour of sleep, my dad woke me up to tell me that my Oma had passed away last night. Honestly, this left me heartbroken. He was a wreck, which scared the crap out of me when I woke up, and I just was in shock when he told me. He is probably leaving either tonight or tomorrow morning to go back to Austria for the funeral. I can't even go because we don't have enough money for two plane tickets. I am pretty devestated about this. Everyone loved my Oma. I just talked to my mom on the phone and even she is pretty broken up about this. I just wish there was some way to console my dad. He's a mess. I feel guilty too because I kept telling him to tell her not to call me yet because my German wasn't too good and I wanted to impress her when I learned more, but now I guess that is too late. She was only 72 years old.

Well, I just had to vent about that right now. I am going apartment hunting with Lauren and Remy soon, so I should probably try to cheer myself up right now. Sorry to depress everyone...

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Meme Time! [12 Jul 2006|02:15am]
[ mood | bored ]
[ music | Kevan playing Oblivion ]

(Click here to post your own answers for this meme.)

I miss somebody right now. × I don't watch much TV these days.  (Law and Order: SVU, Grey's Anatomy, Gilmore Girls, Jeopardy, Star Trek, Invader Zim...I can't get enough!) I own lots of books.
I wear glasses or contact lenses. I love to play video games. I've tried marijuana.
I've watched porn movies. × I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship.  (Pssh, yeah right.) × I believe honesty is usually the best policy.  (Not always. I'm the queen of lying my ass off to get out of sticky situations!)
I curse sometimes.  (If by sometimes you mean A LOT!) I have changed a lot mentally over the last year. × I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me.  (Nope, unlike SOME people I know...)
it goes on... )

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